irritated

Just spent an hour writing a blog & then it disappeared! Over it! Maybe I can post later when I get another free hour!! Argh!

Recent Happenings

Well the most exciting thing literally, is that the sun has been out for 3 or 4 days!! I feel like a different person in spring & summer. I have a little more energy & I definitely have more ambition. I just feel pretty happy. I am trying not to get used to it though...spring around here is tricky. Yesterday I took the children to the pond on base...it is a little ways from my house so it was great exercise. The babies loved it...we saw an eagle! Today I took them to the gym. They have a family workout room & you can watch the kids play through a glass partition. It's nice if there aren't too many people there...otherwise it's scary! Eric has our move almost completely set up. I hope nothing big gets broken this time:( I watched a show about Tokyo & the people on the train were so crammed it looked like one of those college phone booth contests...the door wouldn't even close, they had to literally shove the people in to get the door to close...omg! NO, I am claustrophobic & I can't even think about that right now. I will deal with it if & when it happens, but I hope I do not experience that! I bought a Japanese language book...um, wow...I have no English or Japanese words to describe how lost I am when I look at that book....I will stick to the CD we borrowed for now. I only know 2 words, yes & no. Eric has a list of countries that he will get to visit, and he takes great pleasure in reminding me about that...not nice! I hope that I get to visit a few...I BETTER get to:)
One week & 3 days of home daycare left. I really will miss these babies. I know that they are not mine, but they feel like it. I am used to spending 9-10 hours with these little people, we have a routine & we know each other very well. They are good kids, I am kinda sad about leaving them:(
Not much else going on. I have been eating yellow squash for several days. I fry it with a little EVOO, hehe, & flour. It is light & delicious. I am trying to eat light at lunch to shed a few unsightly lb's. I looked in the mirror & caught a glance of horrid back fat eww. I almost screamed in dismay. I immediately instant messaged my sister to see if she new how to get rid of it, but she didn't know any good moves. I think I need to step up my weight program a little. It isn't like it's new, it just jumped out at me & looked bigger than usual, unacceptable.
One last thing. My good friend Stacy is going to have a baby:)I am so happy for her & Andy. They have a beautiful 8 year daughter who was the flower girl in our wedding & I know she is going to be a great big sister! I am very excited for them.

Weekend Exploration

We drove out to Lake Cushman this weekend & took the dogs out for a drive, we are trying to get Sig used to the car b/f we drive across the country. He was exhausted from riding in the car yesterday:)

Spring Snow...now seriously that is enough!

We woke up Sunday to a ground full of snow & buckets of it coming down! It was beautiful, but now I am ready for a little warmth & some pretty flowers:)

My Living Room Has a Dual Personality

I don't think that I have to say anything. The pictures speak for themselves. Eric can't wait to get rid of all the toys! I will not miss the paperwork hanging on the wall:)

Well, I never really have anything to much to blog about...since I do not have children , it seems like I just blog about myself & that seems very selfish...BUT, it is my blog I guess:) And it feels silly to have a blog and never write on it...so lets see. How about some randomness... I like all the posts of people's normal days! Those are so neat, I love seeing how other people do things! I also love it when some of you guys post recipes & pictures of the dish. Ummm! Eric & I were on a taco kick for quite a while...not so much now:) Mom says I've always been that way...I will eat so much of something that I end up hating it...ie..mayo...ugh! On the food note, I LOVE casseroles, but try not to make them often b/c I can't push away from them very easily. I have been craving brownies BAD but have resisted. Tonight I am making burgers & sweet potato fries...wish I was having brownies too:)
I will be doing daycare for approximately 6 more weeks & then I'm done. I have done this job for over 2 years...time for a break. I have had all infants most of that time! I DON'T know how you moms out there do it, I'm serious! Is it different with your own kids? I LOVE these babies, I really do, and I think that I am pretty good at it, but this is a hard job. People say oh, when they are your own it's different. All I can say to that is , if they were mine I would not be "free" after 4:30. Honestly, can anybody tell me honestly how hard it is?? I want to know the REAL stuff b/f I go down that path.I'm afraid that I am too selfish to have children. I can't believe I just wrote that, but it is the truth...I am selfish. And, how exspensive must it be!! Plus, I would just be heartbroken if I had a baby & it suffered from depression when it grew up or had some other physical problems that I have. I think I would adopt if I wanted kids...I think adoption is awesome. Good grief, I am getting into random things for real...I have a feeling I will end up deleting this post!
I think that this is enough of a post for now!

HORMONES!

I do not know what was wrong with me last week, but I couldn't stop crying & worrying! Oh my gosh, I must have cried for seven days:( It was terrible....seriously! I do struggle with depression, but I think that this was hormones. I'm not sure why I think that, but I do. Does anybody else ever do that? I felt hopeless & nothing helped. Then On Monday -it all stopped & I woke up happy as a lark. It may also have to do with the weather here b/c the sun came out on Monday. If anybody has any advice or has experienced this- feel free to give me your suggestions:)