My Living Room Has a Dual Personality

I don't think that I have to say anything. The pictures speak for themselves. Eric can't wait to get rid of all the toys! I will not miss the paperwork hanging on the wall:)

Well, I never really have anything to much to blog about...since I do not have children , it seems like I just blog about myself & that seems very selfish...BUT, it is my blog I guess:) And it feels silly to have a blog and never write on it...so lets see. How about some randomness... I like all the posts of people's normal days! Those are so neat, I love seeing how other people do things! I also love it when some of you guys post recipes & pictures of the dish. Ummm! Eric & I were on a taco kick for quite a while...not so much now:) Mom says I've always been that way...I will eat so much of something that I end up hating it...ie..mayo...ugh! On the food note, I LOVE casseroles, but try not to make them often b/c I can't push away from them very easily. I have been craving brownies BAD but have resisted. Tonight I am making burgers & sweet potato fries...wish I was having brownies too:)
I will be doing daycare for approximately 6 more weeks & then I'm done. I have done this job for over 2 years...time for a break. I have had all infants most of that time! I DON'T know how you moms out there do it, I'm serious! Is it different with your own kids? I LOVE these babies, I really do, and I think that I am pretty good at it, but this is a hard job. People say oh, when they are your own it's different. All I can say to that is , if they were mine I would not be "free" after 4:30. Honestly, can anybody tell me honestly how hard it is?? I want to know the REAL stuff b/f I go down that path.I'm afraid that I am too selfish to have children. I can't believe I just wrote that, but it is the truth...I am selfish. And, how exspensive must it be!! Plus, I would just be heartbroken if I had a baby & it suffered from depression when it grew up or had some other physical problems that I have. I think I would adopt if I wanted kids...I think adoption is awesome. Good grief, I am getting into random things for real...I have a feeling I will end up deleting this post!
I think that this is enough of a post for now!

HORMONES!

I do not know what was wrong with me last week, but I couldn't stop crying & worrying! Oh my gosh, I must have cried for seven days:( It was terrible....seriously! I do struggle with depression, but I think that this was hormones. I'm not sure why I think that, but I do. Does anybody else ever do that? I felt hopeless & nothing helped. Then On Monday -it all stopped & I woke up happy as a lark. It may also have to do with the weather here b/c the sun came out on Monday. If anybody has any advice or has experienced this- feel free to give me your suggestions:)

British Columbia

Our weekend getaway to Victoria was way more fun than I had anticipated. I don't know what exactly it was that I was expecting, but in any case my hopes were exceeded:) The ferry ride over was initially a huge disappointment b/c the ferry was FULL to an uncomfortable capacity & Eric & I were separated for the entire 3 hour ride...not cool! I started to get really upset, but then I decided that it wasn't that big of a deal & I took a nap. Enough about that. We were able to check into the hotel early & upgrade to a room with a fabulous view. The hotel was a "green" hotel with beautiful white down duvets & tons of extra fluffy white pillows, oh and all of the bath products provided were Aveda. Anyway, the Aura restaurant was located downstairs & the chef was the winner of a prestigious chef award, and has appeared on the food network. We had a very yummy fruit sorbet from room service & a nice bottle of wine;) The breakfast-brunch buffet was out of this world, in fact, the word buffet does not quite do the meal justice. Buffet reminds me of Golden Coral, & that was not what this was! Anyway, lest you think that I am suddenly a millionaire...(I'm not!)...it is soo cheap to travel there right now! The round trip ferry for 2, and hotel plus upgrade was only $280! Very reasonable I thought. I would highly reccomend this little trip to anyone.

Random Ramblings about 2008

1-I hated English peas until I was 31 1/2 years old, and now I crave them...wierd
2-Doing home daycare in my house was a lot easier than I thought it would be
3-Taking a yoga class was way less scary than I imagined
4-We finally got a flat screen tv & a sleigh bed
5-I discovered that the best cut of steak (to me) is the fillet
6-Vegetarian "butter" is very yummy
7-I'm kinda over pizza for a while
8-Vigoss jeans fit me best
9-Montrail flip flops are great
10-If you find a comfy pair of pants buy several pairs
11-Ring worm IS contagious
12-Children need calm assertive energy:) Calm being the operative word.
14-It's ok to say no to your friends
15-I really want to give up diet coke
16-I will never have a butt, that is just the way it is:(

There you go, that's all I got right now!

Christmas photo ordeal!

We make a Christmas card every year....with the dogs. This year it was quite a bit more difficult than normal because because I broke the good camera:( We had to use the old digital camera which, to our knowledge, only gives you 4 seconds to set the timer & get into place! It was hilarious. We finally got one, but it looks funny too! Hope we have a new camera by next Christmas:)

Friendships Can Be Hard

I do not like posting about things like this b/c I do not want to seem like a moron, although I am sometimes, but I am going to write about this anyway. I have friendship issues. Sometimes I do not like to be around people, not b/c I do not like them, but I am just somewhat shy & groups are not always my thing. That being said, sometimes I really like hanging out. I sound bipolar but I'm not. Sometimes I don't return phone calls for long periods of time b/c I feel uncomfortable talking on the phone. I have a lot of acquaintances, but I only form close bonds here and there. I think it may be because I do not trust people. It generally seems harder for me to form close relationships with women. I'm nervous sometimes that other women are being judgemental of me or fake...& yes I can be that way too:( I don't know why I am this way. A lot of the people I meet in the military are really nice, but so different from me. I get invited out to go "clubbing" a lot...totally not my thing! I get invited to a lot of kids birthday parties and I go, but I don't have children so I am a little left out. We haven't met very many people our age without children. My friend says that people like us are called dinks...dual income no kids...I had never heard that before. Anyway, what brought this whole blog on was an incident this weekend. I was going to take my friend out for her birthday & we arranged to meet & she didn't show, or call, & has yet to call. She has done this b/f so I shouldn't be surprised, but I always am. A phone call would have been nice. I waited for 2 hours...not cool. I am not going to take all the blame for my "issues" with friends. I do try to be a considerate, kind person, but sometimes other people do not share the same values. I know friendship is give & take, & I am thankful for my good close friends. Eric's career makes it hard to stay physically in touch with everybody, but I am trying to write & call as much as I can:) Enough of this boring droll! I just needed to get that off my chest, thanks!